Heavy Hitter

I am at the heaviest weight I've ever been in my life. It's odd how something as obvious as weight can creep up and surprise you. I was aware that I was gaining weight but I didn't think it was that much. But here I can with 60 plus pounds to lose.

But there are complications. Namely the eating disorders I have struggled with for over 10 years. I've had to literally not care about the food I eat in order not to obsess over my weight and diet and exercise in unhealthy ways.

So here I am: overweight. A few months ago, I would have said that this is the worst thing that could have happened to me. Now, I've come to terms with the weight. And while it is still uncomfortable for me (physically and emotionally), I no longer fear the weight.

I'm still me. Everything inside of me when I was thin is still there. So, I'm going to take the weight off now. I believe I have the mental capacity to do it the right way. So here goes. Monday, February 17th is D-day. I hope you join me.

Gigi xo

Left: 2010
Right: 2014